So far I have no fucked up badly. Not more than a light admonishing for my speech in addressing the Free men and Free Women. I did, however, make an ass of myself.
One of the Masters decided to cut his hair in the square. The warriors were celebrating their manliness and the peaceful talks with Port Cos, which meant the battle would not be happening (yet.) He shaved his head clean, then looked to me and asked me to fetch him a broom. Note my words. Fetch him a broom. So that’s what I did.
I’m so god-damn eager to please to the point of blinding my thought. I ran to the tavern, grabbed the broom, ran back to him, presented myself with thought to being visually pleasing, and presented him a broom. Like he asked. The Free erupted into laughter. I wanted to sink into the paving stones. It was a case of do as I want, not as I say. With heavy shame I swept the hair up and threw it away.
It could have been worse. If it had been a different Master, or Master was in a foul mood, he had every right to strike me, and he might have for my behavior. I would have deserved it. No Free needs to do physical labor when there are kajirae running around. I could not believe myself. I still can’t.
That transgression stuck with me all night. Another Master asked me to fetch him some food, and jokingly told me to not bring back the broom with it, and not to get any hair in it. I suppose I managed to make up for it because it was forgotten an hour later, but some of the Masters and Mistresses will always remember my little fuck-up, and that alone is enough for me to still be ashamed.